Boundaries

Learning my boundaries and trying to love myself in every moment.  Love is universal, unconditional, freely given not a weapon or conditional.  If my boundaries offend you, I love you but that is what they are.  For me to change myself for you to love me is not LOVE, it is control.

Your Room Is Waiting

Decorated most of your room for you.  I get so exited, always smiling to myself as I look at the stuff waiting to engage with you, to feel your energy, your love, your exploration of this new world. 

I can easily see you nursing on my breast, while sitting in your room with our other fur baby dog, Alle.

I can easily see you being held in your father's arms while he looks out your sunny window.

I can easily see you grasping my finger in your tiny, soft, perfect hand.

I can easily see you smiling up at us from your crib, completely content, knowing how loved you are.

My Little Star

I can’t believe that it is almost time for you to be here my little star, my precious little girl, yikes and yippee!  I can’t wait for you to be here in the physical world although I can already feel you and your energy.  To think that talking to that butterfly, that angel, that higher self, has change my life in so many ways including listening to my intuition which time after time has proven quite reliable. 

I love you and can't wait to hold you, my star, my light, my love.

The Cycle Stops Here

It has been two weeks since I discovered some repressed memories from my childhood....today is my "father's" birthday.  Well I hope you have a great day, without me, with the knowledge of what you did, without lying to yourself anymore and embrace your shadow. 

I have anger toward the darkness you let encompass you, but I forgive and love the inner child that was also abused from your family.

Thankfully I have a real Father & Mother that love me in the right way...Father & Mother God

Negative But Im Positve

How does one know ones body so well that you know their is a growing soul inside of you before the pregnancy test reads positive?

Negative 9/11/2016

All one has to do is be still to hear the rippling waves of knowledge and be open to it.

I love you Mother God, Father God, Holy Spirit

Butterfly Effect

An angel appeared to me, through a beautiful butterfly.  It landed on me twice, then to the plants before me.  Staring at me, willing me to hear its message.

"I'm pregnant, aren't I?"  I questioned.  Already knowing the answer, even though I would only be a couple days along, I knew. 

It stayed for awhile, although it seemed like time stood still, graciously allowing me in its presence.

Receiving this message helped me start to accept my path, accept my grief of having multiple miscarriages and my son's Otto's passing.  It was a warning for me to heal physically and mentally to make room for the new baby growing inside of me. 

Protect me my angels, spirit guides, and surround me with your love.

Mother God Azna I hand this to you.

Love you Mother God, Father God, Holy Spirit