9/30/2014

2 years ago, I was 17 1/2 weeks pregnant with my son Otto, first visit to the hospital because I was bleeding.  With all my pregnancies I had never made it this far.

This was our first glimpse of you, after hearing your glorious heartbeat for the first time.

We are so happy to have had you here for a short time, our son, our precious spiritual gift, Otto Guckes.

Just Old Blood Now

The bleeding is slowing down, no cramps, just old blood.  I can get through this, we want this baby.  Even the nausea is a warm blanket of comfort....a weird one but definitely a comfort.  As long as I'm nauseated the baby is safe and growing.

Bleeding Lightly

Trying not to worry, what will be, will be....
Worrying does nothing but wastes energy.
So, I raise my hands up and give this to Mother God & Father God, I love You

Soul Number 6

Since I was three or four I always knew I was meant to have kids, ached to have kids, loved being around kids but I also knew somehow that was also my challenge.

This soul number in numerology is fulfilled when they have children.  Own their own company with lots of responsibility.  Receiving acknowledgement for all of their hard work with people looking up to them.  When they are appreciated and needed by the people they love in their life.



Love you Mother God, Father God, Holy Spirit

Negative But Im Positve

How does one know ones body so well that you know their is a growing soul inside of you before the pregnancy test reads positive?

Negative 9/11/2016

All one has to do is be still to hear the rippling waves of knowledge and be open to it.

I love you Mother God, Father God, Holy Spirit

Butterfly Effect

An angel appeared to me, through a beautiful butterfly.  It landed on me twice, then to the plants before me.  Staring at me, willing me to hear its message.

"I'm pregnant, aren't I?"  I questioned.  Already knowing the answer, even though I would only be a couple days along, I knew. 

It stayed for awhile, although it seemed like time stood still, graciously allowing me in its presence.

Receiving this message helped me start to accept my path, accept my grief of having multiple miscarriages and my son's Otto's passing.  It was a warning for me to heal physically and mentally to make room for the new baby growing inside of me. 

Protect me my angels, spirit guides, and surround me with your love.

Mother God Azna I hand this to you.

Love you Mother God, Father God, Holy Spirit